Consciousness programmed in advance ...

I read all those pages sometimes with weariness and completely lost in the excesses billions of estimates and billions of years not knowing me into a mental representation.
Content adjust my little knowledge on making the world of the universe but also to get to the end to find out how to change my end of life: I have to believe in what? or by whom? if "consciousness is not serendipity. That it has been programmed in advance so precise at the onset of Life ... and that it was necessary"
But there Trinh Xuan Thun is not going away. Super-consciousness of Origin is she called God?