A courageous autobiographical introspection

Wanting to "grow at any price" is a very legitimate expectation when a teenager is ill at ease and evil in his family but now, the road is long and the construction itself is a terrifying challenge.

The author, Beatrice Dubouis, tells us about her history and life course, in a long monologue that is primarily intended to herself and her family, his sisters, his mother (his father died), the men she knew and her children. She tells us in a refined style his wife and mother built over the years, sentimental sentimental story after story. It expresses many of its truths about his existential vision, which are so many life lessons she has lived intensely and deeply, over water, by letting the current carry meetings and by questioning every next bend. She tells us this obsession that drives the azure since childhood, sky, space, the vastness of the heavenly atmosphere, an obsession she saw through a report to the uncertain and improbable time and which led him to become an accomplished hostess and happy.

The text is written in a glut of metaphors, incalculable multiplication of qualifiers butt welded each time it delivers a decisive feature or an important truth of his soul. A writing that looks a bit like the verbal eloquence and diction experienced a Fabrice Luchini for example. So much so that it is sometimes difficult to follow his thinking and to understand what is implied between the lines, subtly suggested in a desire to keep some inner mystery. But no matter what the password is felt in short, from line to line and page to page, this is a passionate desire to write down his words with SES wanderings emotional, sentimental, existential. Those with the construction of a personality, a consciousness, a psychic freedom without limits, but also the inevitable and fierce determination to overcome childhood torments, the chaos of a confused mind, this lack of fatherly love she has sought all her life, she may be seeking yet

The quest for "absolute ideal," she says (p 70), but which strongly resembles the quest for an absolute ideal, in a life in the plural, decorated with several intense loves and three children adored . The successive passages from one love to another in response to the heart of the calls are not always comprehensible to the observant reader, perhaps because not always well understood by the author herself Witness the great mystery of the end, perhaps unconsciously programmed, its ultimate love affair with the father of her two youngest children (Alizé and Charles), father and lover Love describes as a perfect soul mate, almost a twin flame. Yet the call of existence, the call of the sea, the azure, will be stronger and will push to leave. Why? Because "10 years sharing are insufficient to sign for life," she says. That will allow thoughtful number of us who do not have an understanding - or should I say apprehension? - Intimate and strong of our own existence.

This book is a book on the insatiable quest of a woman his own construction. An attempt to open a window of understanding into a life extraordinary journey that illustrates the complexity of the human and all the influence of our experienced yesterday on our experience of tomorrow. An attempt to understand oneself in words is explained by interposed An attempt to be his own therapist, to release all locks sealed over the years, to close the doors of the past left in open-inadvertently Courageous well Working within business carried out through the externalization of writing, and before which we can only admire.